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22nd-Jun-2010 07:27 pm(no subject)
At times, I really feel like gifing up
But looking back at the efforts I put in
I dun feel like gifing up
Cos I see the future of this job
I noe if I can persevere on
My life will be better
Just this period will be tough
All I need is motivation
Is chances
Is ur belief in me
Dun doubt me pls
The way u all doubt me pull me down too
I noe the presence of me will bring uncertainty
But do trust me
Gif me time to adapt to learn
And I will do a gd job for you

Sometimes I really gt the urge to shout out
To shout back wit all ur naggings
It really hurt and pollute my ear
Even now after wrk, I can hear the buzzing voice of ur
I dun wan to bring troubles to ppl
And can't u see I am working hard?
But in ur perception
I still always rely on ppl
Tell me what should I do to prove to u
When ur mind alr corrupted wit all the mistakes I done

Even u hate newbies, u gt no choice too
Cos if I gt the chance. I dun wan to choose here either
Tell me what should I do?
Do I hate wrking or just tis job dun suit me?
Or I hate the ppl there?
6th-Jun-2010 09:38 pm - Pre-Monday blue

Time flies
One month of training is over
Completed my 9 tests
But the upcoming challenges is even tougher
Not only facing the stress from customers
But internal staffs also
Even the system and procedure gonna stress me too
These all come from infamiliarity
I realise growing up is so difficult
I wonder everyone feel the same way as i do
Or cos is the path i choosen

Keep falling sick on and off
Now medicine become my bestfriend
Tmr i gonna open counter on my own
Wonder hw the outcome will be like
How i wish i can the time of my own
Everyday dun need work
Can go swim, jog, learn dance, shopping, travelling, massaging, high teaing, k sessioning and clubbing
Enjoy till i really sick of it le den go work
Somehw regretted to start work so early
Like i think i am not tat old
Once start working life
Hard to stop alr :( 

I realise decision we make play a huge impact in our life
Due to our inexperience in life
We dunno the decision we make is correct or wrong
And will always wonder
Is the job suit me?
I think a job is kinda like a r.s
Whenever it just started
You always hab a lot of doubts and worries

Whenever the monday come, we wish upon the friday ...

3rd-May-2010 09:00 pm(no subject)

Just one week of work
And i fall sick again =_=
Dunno y keep falling sick
Very tired of all the misfortune
Job is much stressing than the previous job
But no matter hw hard is it
I noe i will walk through it alone :)

Upcoming i gt 9 tests
JY :)

22nd-Apr-2010 04:14 pm(no subject)
When you're gone
I started to miss you!

Yea, all humans are the same
When together for a certain period of time
And no longer contact as much as in the past
You will start to miss them
I leaving alco corporation tmr
Saying goodbye to my besties and korea trip
And yes, tearing scene when parting
But i got to get used to it
And control my emotional

Monday i will start brand new
Every goods of how my besties at alco corporation treated me
I will rmb it in my heart
Frankly speaking, they keep on forgif me even i made so much mistakes
Nv gif up on me
But i noe i dun belong here
Staying longer will only harm you all more
A job is like a r.s
Must noe how to take it and let go of it
Every humans has feelings
Unbearable feelings is understandable
But nv forget the memories and fun i hab here
Goodbye alco corporation
Goodbye my desk

I really enjoyed my going 2 months here
A job when i did things wrong and can smile and i am forgiven
I noe my monday job i gonna be serious
Cos i can't afford to make any mistakes
Jiayou ba!
O ya, TDR is launching another collection tis week
So do stay tune yea :)

* I not gonna make you my everything unless u make me yr something



16th-Apr-2010 02:44 pm(no subject)
And everyday listening to those songs in office
It arise my temptation towards clubbing !!
Oh man...
When can i club again? :) 

16th-Apr-2010 02:42 pm(no subject)


I can't stop compliment my friends
All of them are oh so nice :)
Why am i so fortunate?
Hahaha

This period is my crisis period
Which i feel tat i will collapse anytime
But with the concerns from all my friends
I am not defeated :)

Like weiwei, the "noe one day" become my bestie le
Keep concerning abt my situation
And even my dad
She always can't fail to make me feel so touched
Even on my bday
She came alone to my hse
And gif me a surprise
Standing outside my hse, hiding in one corner
And take cake and call me out
Wad a nice and thoughtful friend
I really can't express my feelings for having such a friend

And my sisters too
Although we does not meet as often as in our past days
But i nv wan u all to become my history
And i really scare one day a conflict will ruin our friendship
And i enjoy every happy moments taking pic wit u all
And though we nv meet
But they still read my blog and noe wad happening to me :)

And wanna say thanks to james and weesiang too
James tat silly guy still help to pray my family is safe and my dad can come out fast
Haha
He taught me tat next time if i go pray
Must tell the god who i am, where i stay and how old
I will rmb tat !!
He everytime ask me to think positively
And always say the truth
:)
Only true friends will say truth to u
Weesiang too, thanks for yr concerns :)
Hope jonathan and ahgogo will be back soon
And gather again :)

Even my workplace besties are gd
So nice to me
Ppl like esther, xue li and lyne
Love u all deep deep la
Can't wait for our korea trip
And love the small chit chat session during lunch :)

Of cos not forgetting my cousin TAN RU YI
Who always there to support in wadever i do
She is the one i can't live witout her
Haas

And also thanks to those who show yr support to TDR!!

And my kor, fish
Always gif me motivation words
Haas
Everytime after talking to him
I will see light
LOL?

And danz, my ah siao kaki :)
Someone i love being wit de  :)
Whenever wit her, i can be myself
No matter hw ugly i laugh aso nvm
Haas
And do wad aso can
And i miss shenny and piangz too
O my
I think my days is not enough
Haas
I wan meet u all soon :(

A lot of thankful words
Can't finish saying
Leave for next time ba
Hahas

Still rmb last time i dun praise ppl at all one
But not now
Cos it is irresistable
They are really too nice and is a must for me to compliment :)

Friends are my top priority now
:)


11th-Apr-2010 01:29 pm(no subject)
How to cheer up?
Nasty things keep coming my way
How to continue to be the gal full of laughters?
I dunno hw to smile now
Why all these bad things does not hab its ending?
Can they pls stop now?
If bad things, just come for me
Dun harm the ppl around me pls
It only hurts me more if the ppl around are in crisis

Ytd went back to kenzo to work
So freaking suay
Reach Heeren busstop at around 9.20am
And i can't walk over
All cos of the pouring rain
So called leesan
And waited till 10.20am
Really dun feel like waiting so just walk over
I does not expect the rain get even heavier when i walk over
I am so so so wet
Went inside paragon
Omg, it is so freaking cold man
And my makeup all messed up
Ppl looking at me really embarrassed me up
Feel like gifing up man
But hang on
I am still down wit flu and yet i caught another rain
And got to stay myself under aircon till 5.30pm

But is ok, i won't die anyway
Meet up wit James and co for steamboat
All i can say is i really hab fun wit them
Frankly speaking, last time i dun feel bonded wit them
Perhaps cos we does not meet as often
But friendship takes time
The more time u willing to spend in a friendship
And more efforts u put inside
U will see results
All needed two hands to clap
And i can say they are really nice ppl and caring too
Is my fortune to meet ppl like them

Angel wanna drive us to marina bay
But cos we cannot find the way so given up and decided to go west coast
I think is very cool when a gal drive
Sometimes i am curious wad is the feeling when u drive
On the way to west coast
My bro msg me saying my father is feeling unwell
Maybe going hospital
I am so anxious and called home but no one ans
Den soon my mum called said my father dun wan go
Wanted to wait till tmr morning
My heart is bumping so fast tat i can feel the ache in it
I am so scared i will lose anyone around me

Today my mum went hospital wit dad
I wanted to go but mum asked me to stay at home
Said bro will be going
But when i wake up, bro aso nv go 
He must be overslept or too tired 
Just recieved a call tat dad gonna stay inside hospital for further checkup
And dad called and i ans
His voice is kind of weird 
Like he is crying when talking to me
i can't take it and i cried too
I asked him, are u very xin ku
He said he is
I can't describe the sadness in me
Just dunno who to turn to
I just feel my heart getting pain 
Am i collapsing?

Pls, dun let anything happen to him
I really could not take it  

5th-Apr-2010 03:51 pm(no subject)


Sian
More and More problems
Am i suay or wad?
Heart problem
6 Days Diahorrea
Fall down at graveyard and sprain my finger
Sore throat cum cough cum flu
Korea trip
Anymore?

My company bringing us to korea
Is a thing to be happy abt
But i need to pay half the ticket price
Which costs abt $600
And still need to spend over there?
Need at least $500
So in total i need abt $1100
Of cos i need parent's approval
But if they allow
I aso dun hab $1100
And even they willing to help me pay some
I aso will feel bad
Like just start work onli
Den i go enjoy
Den father work for so long
Still nv gt the chance to enjoy
Hais
Troubled
Dunno wad should i do man :(

If only i am rich enough
Den everything can be solved ba
If not going for tis company trip
I need to stay in the office alone :(
Omg
Can i handle everything?
Can anyone help me solve tis problem?
So many unhappy thingy happen at the same time
Really driving me mad
Which is the right choice?
Gif up on tis great opportunity to visit korea?


30th-Mar-2010 06:08 pm(no subject)
Sometimes avoiding is not a solution
But facing it need a lot of courage
Finally i plucked up my courage to go hospital and check
Think i gt some sort of thing like MVP
Diagnosed the same as the doctor from the clinic

Sadly,
This stupid illness really make me hate it to hell
Even walk and run and agitated i can get affected
And hw can i tell ppl abt it?
It will only brings troubles
If one day u and yr friend is walking towards the busstop
And suddenly the bus came
And u need to run but u can't
How to tell yr friend?
Like kind of loser la
Ppl sure will think u r veri troublesome one
Or yr friend wanna walk a long distance?
How to reject?
Again tis illness?
Wad a spoiler?

Now i hab to depend on medicine
Whenever i hab chest pain
I need to eat it
If one tablet not ok
Eat the 2nd one
If not ok
Admit to hospital
WTF rite?
How will i be so unhealthy?
I bet must be the doctor in SGH so lousy
I so young
Of cos my heart is healthy too
Pls
Dun make me like a loser in everyone's eyes
And be a sick cat
I hate it ok..
I rather go work den stay at home la
Even i gt 4 days mc
I den dun wan stay at home
So damn sian de lo
I rather go work
At least there is laughters there
At least gt my friends there
Den staying at home
Making me like a sick cat

I gonna prove tat u r out of my life
Is the doctor diagnosed wrongly
Is the doctor not gd enough
:)

26th-Mar-2010 05:23 pm(no subject)

Yesterday, I was your friend.
Today, I'm still your friend.
Don't worry about tomorrow,
I'll always be your friend.
That's a promise.

After reading the msg sent by one of my friend
All the memories came back to me
All the sadness
All the guilt
In a human lifespan
Nv do something tat u feel unsure abt
And nv even be a follower even at the eleventh hour when u need to make fast decision
Trust wad u think is correct and nv regret upon it

Always put yrself in ppl shoes
Imagine one of yr gd friend backstab u, how would u feel?
Kinda sad,rite?

Hais
Thoughts keep wondering these few days
Make me feel that looks is not the real beauty
But character
For example
There is one gal who is damn pretty, look like angel
Which u can't find any flaws at all
But when noeing her better
She is not as pretty as u thought alr
The fact is not cos her looks changes
Is the behavior of her make u change yr views of her
And for those u think does not really look gd
But when knowing her better
U will feel that she is really pretty
Is cos her character bring out the beauty in her heart
So dun matter hw one look
Look for those who will make you feel that she is always pretty
Inner beauty describe what i said

In this world
There live different ppl of different characters
Sometimes someone who is nice to u
Actually might not be as nice as you think
I think the most scary person would be
Wanna herself to be the apple in everyone's eyes
Telling tis person tat person bad words
And tat person tis person bad words
Just wanna ruin one and one r.s
Dun u think is scary?
When u feel she is somehw yr best friend
And will nv do anything tat will harm u
But yet she also bad mouth abt u?
Tis kind of ppl worth us making friends wit them?
Dun they think their life gonna be tired?
I think all these lie in jealousy
Wanna be the centre of attention
Truth will reveal itself one day

Once impression is ruined, is ruined forever ~ 
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